EP 23 | What Keeps us From Creating the Life of our Dreams

In Episode 23 of Deep Divin', we’re getting into the nitty-gritty of what actually keeps us stuck when we’re trying to create the life of our dreams. Spoiler: it’s not just bad luck or Mercury retrograde—it’s that sneaky subconscious programming that loves to keep us comfy and stagnant.

Nancy opens up about feeling stuck and how those old belief systems are harder to shake than a bad habit. Meanwhile, Brenda shares her secrets for preparing herself to receive all the good vibes the universe has to offer. (Hint: it’s not just manifesting; it’s about being ready when the blessings arrive!)

We also talk about the struggle of getting caught up in day-to-day life and how it’s so much easier to stay in your comfort zone than to actually push yourself to grow. But let’s be real—your comfort zone isn’t where the magic happens.

This episode is for anyone who feels like life is on repeat and wants to break the cycle. It’s funny, it’s raw, and it’s packed with tips to help you stop blocking your own blessings and start living the life you actually want.

Follow us on Instagram and YouTube for more inspo, behind-the-scenes laughs, and relatable content that’ll keep you motivated.

Keywords: Overcoming Subconscious Programming, Breaking Comfort Zone, Manifesting Abundance, Living Your Dream Life, Personal Growth, Self-Discovery, Stuck in Life, Growth Mindset, nervous system regulation

Hashtags: #DreamLifeVibes #BreakTheCycle #LatinaPodcast #ManifestYourDreams #PersonalGrowthJourney #StuckNoMore #LatinaHealing #ComfortZoneBreakout #GrowthMindsetMatters #LifeByDesign #generationalhealing #breakinggenerationaltrauma

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EP 23 | What Keeps us From Creating the Life of our Dreams

 Hey guys, welcome to the Deep Dive In podcast with Nancy and Brenda. And we are back, baby. There she is. I feel like we haven't recorded for a while. Wait, now we have it. Because we did. Shall we see when we record? Is that a secret? I don't know, have we exposed that or not? Is that supposed to be? Um. Well, you know, we've kept up. Yeah. So I think that's so awesome. We're like our third episode, I think to the 23rd. Yeah. And I feel. Yeah. Um. That's exciting. Yeah, I still feel excited about it. I think I say that every episode. Not gonna lie. Um, I'm excited or I get excited when we record because I feel like it's a different Nancy that comes on. And so I'm like, oh, see this Nancy? They're not gonna. So you you don't know? Yeah. I feel like it feels different. Not gonna lie. Like it just naturally flows out of me. That's why I think I like it so much. Because it's like I'm not even thinking about, like, what I'm gonna say or what is gonna happen. It just like happens. Yeah. And, um, I wish my whole life was like that. Like, why can't, like, why can't I just do this right? For the different things I have to do in my life? Um, which is actually interesting because it, like, goes right into, um, what we were going to talk about. Yeah. Cause it's funny, cause it's like. So we were gonna, like, I wanted to dive deep into, um, what I feel is or what I feel has been like. And it still is the biggest battle for me, um, with, I don't know, the biggest battle for me in my life, really. Um, and I feel and I wanted to dive deep, deep into that. Um, what's my biggest battle and what has been my biggest battle as much as this this year has been life changing. So that's it. Expansive from different perspectives, from different from everywhere, really. Um, for myself, for you, for our relationship, for relationships that we have individually. Like it's been it's been very expensive, but it's also been the biggest challenge and the biggest challenge for me. Um, and I feel like it's still ongoing. Like, I was thinking to myself the other day like, oh my God. Like, I feel like I want to go to, uh, I don't know, like a retreat or something. I feel like I need to go to a retreat where you're just silent for two weeks. You know, like one of those. Like you're just meditating in silence and receiving, like, you know, guidance from your spirit, from from God, from, you know, source. Like, I feel like I want to do that, like, just fucking get away from everything and any everyone and just be in silence for. Two weeks. A month, I mean, I don't know. But like, I, I would totally like, want to do that because I, I feel like the like I said, the biggest challenge is been the most expanding year of my life. Um, not always. Has it been the most expensive for you? Um, I think just well, first of all, with going through, um, experiencing like a whole different world with the spirituality and spirituality, um, expansive and being connected to something greater than me that is essentially helping me in this life experience and even knowing that, like, they realize that's it. I realized that this year I finally have or I not finally, but I have a connection with God. Um, and I know that I'm not just here on my own, that I have guidance, that I have help outside of, you know, you or my family or whatever. Like I have spiritual help. Yeah. Um, and I think that's been one of the biggest expansions to lean into that because prior to this year, like I said, in like in previous, um, in previous podcasts or episodes, like I learned how to pray this year, like I learned that I learned how to, um, be more connected. I learned, like, all of these things and and allowed myself to actually, like, build that connection, um, that I didn't know existed. Yeah. Wow. Yeah. That's huge. Right now is only one part of it that there was only nine. And so yeah, like that was only one thing. So I mean, yeah. So it's been very like it's it's been life changing in that aspect. Um, I think the moment that you. Start understanding, or you start letting yourself, uh, be an awareness that there is a higher power or higher self. Um, in a sense that is here to help you and here to, like, guide you and, and know that everything is happening for you. It's like that in itself is a life changing, you know, perspective on how you live life. Yes. Because now, like anything bad that happens or whatever, I feel like I have a different view on it. Even people dying. Yeah. Yeah. That was a big one for you. Yeah, yeah. There's a lot of death in my family is we have a huge family. So that was one of the things too, is I look at death differently now. I feel like I have a better I have like a broader understanding of, like the soul, you know, choosing to leave at the time they're choosing to leave. And yeah, we're left with the grief. But, um, we're also left with all the memories and the love that this person provided and, you know, your family or whoever it is, um, and I, I feel like death is actually good. Oh, crap. It's a habit. Like, guys usually don't freak out. Don't turn it off. Yeah. You're like, for. I feel like people are going to say like, damn, Nancy's really drank the Kool-Aid or something. Um, because it's so different than how we were raised to believe or how the media or how we even see death as a society. Yeah, like we see it. So like. Like bad. Yeah. For lack of better word. Like we see it. So like, um, dark and sad and like all of these feelings and emotions that are very low frequency feelings and it's like, and I and I learned that it's not that it's not, it's actually, um, like I listened to Mathias that he's he talked about, um, you know, creating a portal for your family. And what that means is just holding them in a high vibration when they do pass away so that they are able to transition to, you know, the right to the light. Um, because I because he says, if we hold this like sadness and we're like in deep like, um, desperate, you know, like in that deep, sad state of grief and stuff. Sometimes our loved ones don't transition because they don't want to leave us here in that state. And it's hard because we were because we have been conditioned to feel that sadness and to stay attached to like, the physical body. Exactly. And then there's truly no understanding, um, there's very little understanding of the spiritual aspect of death. Yeah. Like my soul is still in. I feel your soul. Like when people say, like I felt my grandma or my grandma came to my dreams, like, that's them speaking to you. That's them. They're being with you. Yeah. And I think the lack of understanding of that is what causes people to really stay in that grief. And yes, like. Uh, grief. Yeah. And sadness. And it's understandable, you know, like, we do have these emotions and it's. And so when we lose something like, we feel these things and it's okay to feel those way. But yeah, that was like part of the expansion because in ceremony when my little cousin came to me, um, like, he showed me that, he showed me that like, it's like he's okay. Like he's like like I was the one. And like, we stay here if I can in sadness and grief and stuff, which is completely okay. I'm not knocking that. Yeah, but, um, he showed me, like, you don't have to stay in that. You're you're here to live and experience and still enjoy the rest of, you know, um, and their life, really their life and what the, the part that they played in their lives in your life. Um, it really just goes to show the love that you can feel for someone. Yeah, yeah. And then, you know, like. And then there unfortunately, you know, passed and they're not physically here. But that love that you that you have for that person in physical form or just as a person like it's still there. Mhm. So. You could live and love to. Yeah, you don't have to stay in grief. You could transition from grief and understanding that it does hurt. Understandably so, because it's not a person that's physically here, or there's no more memories that you will be building with them. So you can like that is a grieving thing. Um, but it can also be transitioned into feeling the love of all of the memories you did have with them. Right? So that was another huge, expansive part for you, too. Yeah. Meeting up with your cousin in the soul. Okay. Yeah, yeah, I mean that completely, like I said, changed my perspective of how I feel about death specifically, especially because of all of the death that has happened in for me in my life. Um, I like it's crazy because even between you and me, like our families, I think since we met, I've gone to six funerals or something or. Yeah, it's crazy. And I one person in my family has died. Yeah. I'm like, wait, what the hell is it that Salvadorian blood that you have that native in you? We're colonized. Wait, is that a thing? No. Yeah. Like, in in just our relationship, in the span of our relationship, there's just been so much death like. And I'm talking about, like, close family members that have passed away and because of because of that, um, experience I had in, in doing, um, psilocybin mushrooms and going through that ceremony, like I was able to expand and just viewing that. But it also lets you view life differently as well, because it's not just death. It's also anything like not taking things so to heart, like I've always been. First of all, I've always been a person that's like not a big deal. Like, I feel like I'm. I feel like I've always been like, uh, like it's not a big deal. And I think I say that to you all the time, like it is not a big deal or like, what the hell? Um. And I feel like I've always been like, it's not a big deal kind of person. Um, but it's a different way to live, for sure, because, uh, because, again, it's not like it's, um, it hasn't been the it hasn't been the best received in in relationships. I still learning. Yeah. Um, I mean, it's not a big deal. Yeah. Oh, man. Yeah. Like, I just been that way. Um, but, I mean, it also helped me, like, it also helped me, like, see things like, you know, if something happens, for example, you know, like something breaks down or something that were considered, it's considered to be a negative thing, like, um, what's there? Like a flat tire? Yeah. That's a good a good one. Yeah. Um, like it happened, you know, like, probably saved me from a freaking car accident. Yeah. Or something. Like a frame dies. Yeah, like it's happening for me. Like what? If, you know, this is keeping me from getting crashed down the road or whatever. Yeah. Um, so just seeing those things, seeing the things in different. In a different way. Mhm. Um, which is. Yeah. Like that's another expansion moment. What about for you. How has this year what's been expensive for me in a lot of ways. One of the things that comes to mind is, um, my whole truly understanding motherhood, um, and feeling like, I think a lot of people in my generation. So I'm 33 and a lot of people in my generation, they feel like. Their mothers. A lot of their mothers didn't really know, like how to raise them because their mothers just learned from their mothers. Yeah, like my mom learned from my grandma, right? Yeah. My grandma was just on pure survival mode. So my grandma thought my mom pure survival mode. Hence that's what was passed down to me. And I, I remember when I had kids with my first kid, like I remember thinking, like, I don't want to be like my mom. And what I meant by that was like, I don't want to be the one that didn't show love to her kids or affection or like, care for them in that loving way that her mother does. Right? Yeah. And so, um, that was what I mean, that I truly learned what real motherhood is. And the loving side, the affectionate side, the understanding side, the compassionate side. And, uh, going from that maiden victim mentality like, well, I don't know how to do this. And like, my mother never taught me this to stepping up and taking responsibility over like, no, I'm a mother and I'm. So with that transition comes a lot I feel. And so there was that. There was also the whole, um, tapping deeper into my spiritual self. I know coming from a religion, there was a lot of dismantling that is so going on in regards to like what I learned there that I do not want to hold on to. But there were pieces that I did learn there and that I have held onto. And because they feel like that, they they truly uplift my experience here, you know, my living. And so that whole dig diving deeper is to the spiritual aspect of things. Um, just like you said, you go in deeper. It's for me, it's tapping into the ancestral part, like getting back to where I truly came from. Yeah. Uh, that's more my piece of things and where I feel that, um, there's been a lot of expansion with that. There's also been a lot of expansion in me as a person as far as, like, my mentality, my, um, my energy. And that has obviously translated itself into our relationship romantically. Um, my relationship with my family, my relationship with my friends, with my kids. And I think this year so far has truly led me to the word, uh, authentic expression or the words authentic expression and gratitude. So those are the things that come to mind. Off the top of my head. Um, yeah. Like those are big. Yeah. Oh, just, uh, you know, um. Yeah, I've just completely changed it as a person and, um. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. No. Yeah. It's been like. It's just been a crazy year. I feel like like I was saying earlier, like, it was just been one of those years of, uh, seeing things in different perspectives of where, I mean, even in our, in our, like, uh, profession or whatever, like our jobs and stuff. It's been a frickin a roller coaster just in that, um, aka weird life and, um, yeah, like, but one of the things that I wanted to dive into originally was the whole, like, all like, this year has just been or this year has just been very expanding and knowing, like all of these things that are just seeing life differently and the perspective differently, but having to live still in this world that we live in. Yeah. Um, the matrix worlds. And what that means is just like the corporate world with the government and like, you know, taxes and like a government that doesn't care about you or whatever, like. Like it's, it's been a that has been I think for me the biggest um, I want to say challenge um, because it's like I've experienced this connection with source and I was able to have a connection with my little cousin. I passed away so many years ago, and I saw, you know, different things of like, my family and was ever was able even to mend some of the feelings that I had towards my childhood and growing up. Um, and, and he or some of those parts of me, um, as well. And then like, and then you come back, you fucking live in this world, then like, go back to her. To what do you legacy. How can I help you today? Um, not necessarily in that way. And so I feel like the biggest part for me has been that challenge of all of this expansion and all of this knowing and learning and stuff, and then like, having to incorporate that in my daily life, um, doing the life things, um, and, and uh, still having to do the live things and still having to whatever, like work a job and just to make because you have to make money to survive. And and don't get me wrong, like I personally believe that there's also other ways of making money, right? And unfortunately it takes money to do those other things as well. So you kind of have to have like a steady income to survive in order for you to kind of follow, you know, any business or entrepreneurship, um, dreams that you have. So it's like it's intertwined and, and, um, you know, I've been thinking about this for, I don't know, a couple of weeks now because it's been very like it's been a big thing, like it's been a big thing in, in thinking about it, like, how do I incorporate or how do I where do I have to get myself to, um, to, to be in that balance of like, okay, like, I, I enjoy what I do on a daily basis. I wish I didn't have to. Yeah, but I still enjoy what I do. Um, and then like, do the other things, you know, on my free time or whatever. And it's just it it's really frightening the balance. Because sometimes even if you want like after work, for example, and you want to do the other things, it's like like I feel drained sometimes. Mhm. Um, or I don't know, like I lose focus and I just start like doing something that I didn't even think of doing or plan on doing. So it's kind of like I guess that's the work in progress for me. It's um, just kind of getting myself into this place of balance, of continuing with practicing my spirituality. Um, and that connection to because I want to have that connection. And the reason why I say that is because it brings peace. Like, for me, um, being in the state of, like, everything's working out for me, being in the state of, like, um, you know, everything's happening for me. Um, being in the state of connection with source, knowing that, you know, there is a higher self. There is a higher God that's here to help us move through this life experience. Like I said, like knowing all of those things and staying in that vibration helps me live in peace. Oh yeah, I can agree with that. And it's and it's a vibration that I want to stay in. Right. Because from there I know that you just you know, you flow. You flow with life, with whatever life brings you. Yeah. Um, and that's the balance I want to, like, learn how like I feel. That's the kind of I feel like that's the happy medium on, you know, trying to live this peaceful, flowing life is knowing how to incorporate your spirituality and, you know, your, um, your learning in, in your vibration and, and your emotions where you stay in your frequency and bringing that to your day to day, like life. Yeah, I agree, or even maybe late. Um, this is something that just came to me. Maybe. Seeking out a different profession. Yeah, right. Yeah. Maybe it takes just that. Yeah. Exactly. Alignment. Yeah. In a sense. Um, that's so true. Yeah. Because it's like, oh, I could just be like, I could go or I it's just like, oh, let me go check out what other like, work I could find. Um, as I work through my spirituality. Spirituality. As I work through my players, I know. Yeah, yeah. And then like figuring out, like how to make money to survive and then do the things that I want to do. Right. Um, yeah. So that's like, that's. I feel like that's been the biggest challenge for me as much as I learned, like, I learned so much about myself and all of that, like all of those things I want to put into action like I want to. I've shared before, like how I want to, like I see myself being, um, like a speaker, and I see myself holding space for, um, big groups of people. And I see myself leading a community, like all of these things. And but I know that I'm not there yet. I know that, um, I know that there's still the breakthroughs needed or the change needed for myself to get to those places. Um, understandable. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. Um. I was going to say something when you were talking. Something you reminded me of, but I forgot. And. It's just like it makes you start thinking about a bunch of things. Yeah, like it makes you start thinking of different possibilities. Like it starts making you think of like, okay, how exactly can I, can I set up my life? Like, what things do I have to do? And like, sometimes I think about those things too. Like, I even write down my schedule on my notes, or I put like alarms for myself or whatever. And it's just been very difficult for me to follow, like to, to break through them. And then I started asking myself, like, why am I not able to make the change? Yeah. Because, you know, sometimes we know what we have to do. Like, we know we see ourselves. We envision it like that's literally where I'm at. I know where I have to do, I know what, I know what I have to do and the changes I have to make. For the life that I want to come through, and I feel like my subconscious programming is so embedded in me that like, it's that like, it doesn't let me, I don't like, I don't, I don't want I don't like to say that, but it's like the work that I need to do, I know is in my subconscious programming and to be able to like, make the changes and. Yeah. Wow. I was gonna say, and when you ask yourself that, do you receive an answer? Yeah, I yeah, you I received the I received the answer of like you have to do more work on your programming. Yeah. Because it does take a lot to in order to get that life, that bigger life that you see. And then we envision it takes a lot more of us. But if our subconscious part of our brain is not ready to give more, then you are not going to get more. Yes. Can't you stay stuck? Yes. And that's literally I feel, you know, this is this is probably going to be a crazy analogy, but like, I feel like, um, uh, kind of like my or a ghost, like seeing me live knowing, like my true self. Like seeing me, um, living and, like, telling me, like, the things that I have to do, but it just like I'm just not doing it. And it's very hard, actually, the way that I. That probably doesn't make any sense, but the way that I see it is like, I see like different like different me's, I don't I don't know how to explain it really, but Nancy multiple Nancy's like and then the main Nancy like my soul. Nancy's like like I've already told you a million times when you have to do. You're just not fucking doing it. And then it's like, all right. And then I go back and I write down what I have to do, and then it doesn't happen. Yeah. And then again, the little voice is like, how many times do I have to tell you what you have to do? And that's like just getting louder and louder and louder, right? So I feel like they're like, it's coming. I feel like there's I feel like there's something that's going to happen in my life. Unfortunately, I, I, I don't know if it's going to be drastic or not, but I feel like there's they there's going to be something that happens in my life that is going to shake me, to push me, to like what I have to do, or I'm just going to go into, like, a hypnotic hypnosis. Yeah. And, and, and I can have them reprogram my subconscious mind. You're my rock. Yeah. I don't know why people like to stress on themselves, but it doesn't stress me out, though. Like me saying like, oh, there's going to be something like, there's gotta be something that happens for me to fucking break through and like, just be what I want to be, right? And do what I want to do. It doesn't stress me out. I'm actually excited about it, but I don't know what it's going to be. No. Yeah. Unless it's unless it's literally this. And me realizing that I have to just do the work to reprogram my subconscious mind. Yeah. Because a lot of times we tell ourselves we're doing the work and we're really not. Yeah. And, um, and the subconscious work is truly deep work. Yeah. And I think that's where sometimes we don't start it because we're like, oh, shit. Yeah. There's so much. Yeah. Um, I yeah, I mean sorry, like sometimes I but then when I think about it and there is that conversation as well, like fuck, like how much more work, you know, like how much more work to have to do or whatever. Do you have those conversations with yourself? Um, like, however, you know, like sometimes I think like, fuck it, where am I? Like, I have to, you know, go like, think about, yeah, write these affirmations or whatever. But then at the same time I'm like, well, how bad do you want it? Yeah. If all they want in life is that. Yeah. If on the other side of doing that work is. The most beautiful life that you could ever imagine, beyond your imagination and all of the things that are coming to you and you're able to help and provide other people. Um, peace and and of mind and love and money and help them financially. Like how bad do you want it? And I and I have these conversations with myself. I'm like, fuck, I really fucking wanted to yourself. I'm like, well, he's not bad enough, Nancy, since, you know. No, no, I thought you probably want it. So you're probably telling me that. Then my mind. Then you start thinking, yeah, that's you sneaking it in there now. Because I told myself that before. Yeah, well, Brenda. Hello. Do you really want that lifeline? Right? I see, not because you're not doing shit about it. And I'm like, damn, that's harsh, but that's. I mean, for me, life works. Yeah. Doesn't seem realistic. Yeah. And I'm over here like, it's okay. Nancy takes time. No, it's like, no. Hell, no. It's not like he's a you decide that you want to do it now or not. Yeah. And I truly and I completely agree with that. You have to decide. Yeah. Like the moment you decide is like, um. I remember some, like I heard that one. I don't want to say where I heard from, but, um. Why? Well, because you know what I'm talking about. But I remember somebody saying, um, life is just making it. Like, life is just the decisions you make, the choices you make. So every choice that you make is you're creating your life. So it's like just knowing, like decide, make a decision of what you want to do and you go do that. Yeah. And I've made that. That's so that's the thing. Like I made decisions of what I want to do. Right. Um, but then it falls back to like just not doing them because I fall into the day to day life thing. Right? Um, it is subconscious, though, right? It is. It's the subconscious. The subconscious mind. Yeah. That is not allowing me to. That is maybe not a lot. Maybe, I don't know. Maybe it's like at the bottom of it. It's a fear of something. Okay. Yeah. Cause I know I've asked myself when it comes to decision making, why is it that, um, I don't do something right? And then I dig deeper and then I'd say, well, what is it about making decisions that, like, scares you? Or like, when have you made a decision where, like, failed? Yeah. I'm right. And then I write that down and I'm like, oh, well, I'm actually scared of making decisions. Or I was scared of making decisions because I feel like if I make a wrong decision and everybody's gonna, like, look at me a certain way, right? And so then it goes deeper and it's like, oh, well, who looked at you a certain way when you made a certain decision? And it's like, oh shit. Well, I think I really look at my parents because they always look at me like I make the best decisions ever, and they come to me for everything. And it's like, okay, so what else is under that? And so it's literally like, um, it's literally so rubber that. Yeah. Like if, you know, like why I, I have made the decision but I don't know why. Yeah. It's literally sitting there writing down like, well, what is it about decision making that I fear? Because at the bottom of it, it's a fear for every we'll see all the subconscious stuff in in us in so fear of something. And so we just have to get down to the bottom of it. Yeah. I mean, you know, I was I agree like I feel like maybe like sometimes I think about it and I'm like, well, what if I feel what if really subconsciously I feel or I'm like, I'm feeling like I'm not worthy of the life that I, you know, see myself living. And that stops me from going in the direction of having that life, because I know it's going to come and I'm not going to know what to do about it, or I'm not going to know how to live in it. That's how I feel right now. Yeah, yeah, I feel I feel that when you're saying because for the longest time I had a fear of being seen and I and I was not putting myself out there because I knew that once I put myself out there, whatever I wanted would come to me. And I'm getting emotional now, but, um, but I the reason why I was holding back was because I knew that. And, you know, like, things happened for me very quickly. Yeah. Like, whatever I want, I will get it really quick. And so I was scared, and I was scared because I was like, what are people going to think about me? What are people going to say about me? And, uh, like, it was all about what other people would think about me. And then I was like, you know what? Well, I need to do this. And I, I entered a container with the group of people. I'm like, I'm gonna get my chart read. I'm going to do this and this and this. And it was like, okay. And it began it. It really began elevating my thoughts about myself. Then I was just like, okay, well, I'm gonna start putting myself out there now. Like, no, I don't care anymore because what I want, like the feeling of what I want is already here. And I'm like, I want that more than like, whatever a fucking X has to say about me or whatever he may think about me or whatever. Like the people at the church I used to go to may think about me. Those are the things where I'm just like, forget it. Yeah. You know? And it's like it's letting go of the fear. Yeah. What's there was a fear underneath it all and being judged. And now how you're saying, like, you know, that it'll come to you when you step forward and into that path. I'm stepping into that path and you're seeing it in like in front of your eyes. And I'm like, all right, I don't know what to do with this. I don't know what to do with this. I'm like, collaborations are coming. I'm like, people are coming to me. And they're like, we need to do this and make it big in next year, 2025. And I'm like, let's do it right. Um, but inside I'm like, oh shit, I need to make sure that I feel ready for what is coming, right? And so every morning I'm writing down my affirmations. I'm worthy of receiving collaborations. I am worthy of whatever other affirmations come to my heart, and not only right, but because I am preparing myself for what is already on its way, because it already is on its way. I already feel it. Yeah. And I'm like, all right, well, I don't know what I was supposed to do with this, but I'm gonna make sure that I'm ready. Yeah. Be ready. Yeah. To receive. And I think that's all it takes is just taking the courage or having that courage to to take that first step. So you, like just go out there? Yeah, like a little birdie and know that. And because you already know it's coming to you. And so then, okay, if I already know it's coming to me, then that means I need to get prepared. How do I get prepared? Make sure that I'm reprogramming my subconscious. Make sure that I feel worthy of receiving that which is coming to me. Okay. Let me write my affirmations down. Um, let me go ahead and step into the room with other people that I know actually celebrate that success that I'm going to be receiving. And, um, like, it's like it's a I don't know how to explain it, but it's like, you already know it's coming, so just get ready. Yeah. You know. Yeah. I don't know how to explain that. No. Yeah, that that is self-explanatory. Like, you already know what's coming, especially like in the conversations and will we know like when what our conversations have been and stuff like we already know the frequency and vibration we have to hold in ourselves or for ourselves in order to let these the life bring what we will. We've asked for it. That's amazing. I know I see it with like I know it's coming for like it is. It's already here, like you said. Yeah, you're like planning. It's already. Yeah it's already, it's already here. And it's so amazing to see like you doing what you have to do. Um, not even knowing, like if you are doing the right thing or not, like you're just. You know what I'm calling it? Yeah, yeah. I'm just doing what feels good on a daily basis, and, um, whatever. Like, I've made a meet up with this person I'm going to meet. Like, I don't know what's gonna come from that, but they want to me. Yeah, I want to meet them. Like, let me see what's up exactly. Um, and it's building that community to being around the people that are like. That are, um, having the same vision or that have the same vibration and that same intent, um, to help others just to help other people. Yeah. Um, but that's awesome. Yeah. I feel I definitely feel like it's like I said, it's like subconscious work. Um, for me, it's it's a lot. It's a it's very like it's a lot different. I don't know, I don't, I don't know if it's because you've, you have been able to connect to a higher power or higher self and have, have that like when you although it was a church thing like you, you have been able to you're, you're the type of person that's like I'm a decide to do something and you go all into it. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Yeah. And and I'm the type and I don't know what type of person I haven't seen, I guess. I'm saying I don't know what type of person I am. I'm just like, whatever happens, happens. Yeah. Um, and I think that's also the thing that it that I've always been the or I've grew, I grew up with uh, whatever happens happens mentality or like, you know, just like forget not have a plan kind of a thing. Um, and I mean, it's worked out sometimes and sometimes it hasn't in my life, but I feel I'm at a point where no, like, it's got to be different, you know, to say it's got to be a decision and it's got to be a like a commitment. And I think that's the main thing is the commitment side of things, because I've never I've never fully like committed to something that's up there or something there. Like I've never like I have obviously like I'm saying I'm never fully committed to doing something for myself. Yeah. And um, I mean, yeah, that's probably part of it, you know, not probably like it is part of it. It's part of the thing. And I was thinking the other day, I'm like, cause, you know, like, I again, I've been having these conversations with myself of like, what the fuck? Dancy like, snap out of it, you know? Um. I'm like. And I even tell myself, like, bro, we don't have a lot of time. Like, like we gotta go, you know? Um, and, um, and I'm telling myself this, right? And it's like a constant, like a daily battle of, like, come on. And so we gotta go. And then I get caught up in work stuff and whatever. Right. But I feel like I also was thinking like, oh, uh, going down, like, why? I like the decision making, the commitment, for example, of something that I want to do for myself. And I really never like, I, I never really like did that commitment for myself. And I feel like I get, I get distracted by or I it's like if I distract myself by like making sure or by like paying more attention to you or what are we going to do, um, you know, after work or when the girls are here, like, oh, well, now I have to, you know, do stuff with them, you know, so I don't have time for myself. And it's not giving myself the time. But then again, it's like I'm making up these excuses of like, oh, I have to spend time with you now, or I have to spend time with the girls now. For me not to do the things that I have to do for myself to get to where I want to be. Yeah. So what are you scared of? I don't know. Is that the. Yeah. Like. It's like when I'm scared of, like, why am I coming up this excuse that. And I say like, oh, I spend time with the family or like, yeah, do the house stuff. Right. Like fleeing or like, oh, I have to do laundry. No, I can't because I'd have to do this. Like where, you know, I want to go to the gym and I want to like or do something active and stuff, and I don't because I'm like, oh, I have to clean. They're like, no, no, no. You know. Yeah. Your mind. You're like, well, I should do this instead. Yeah. Like, oh, let me be responsible. Yeah. So I'm like, well is it, is it me? Like, um, yeah. Like is it me just putting up an excuse of like, well, let me be responsible, do things that I have to do to make sure that the house is clean and blah, blah, blah, um, and then like, and then worry about what I have to get done. Right. Um, but like, again, those are all like, subconscious programming things. Yeah. Not like taking care of everything outside of me and putting myself last. And I think that's a big thing for a lot of people. Like we tend to, we feel stuck and we tend to, um, not take care of ourselves because we feel like we need to get all of the outside things done the cleaning, the laundry, the kids, the partner. Like all of these things need to happen before I give myself time to go work out, because it's going to make me feel better. Yeah. And I felt like, you know, the the sadness or the heaviness of your soul, you're not doing something free. Mhm. And uh, and it's, you're like, it seems to me like gear in the shoes I was in maybe five years ago. Um, that selflessness like being selfless. Yeah. And giving of yourself to everybody else and put yourself last to the point where you're running on empty so you don't do anything for yourself. Yeah. I feel like it's still it's keeping in that conversation with yourself. Um, because obviously, if I stop thinking about it and I just, like, keep going the same way. Um, but then nothing's going to change. But I know I want things to change. I know that there is work I need to do, and I feel like like I said, it's it's getting louder and louder and louder for me that I need to do the work to get there because that life is waiting for me like it's there in my fucking front door. Yeah. And it's waiting for me. Um, and I'm literally like, my hand is like, on the doorknob, and I just have to do the work for my hand to be able to twist that doorknob and open the fucking door. I feel so stay tuned, guys. Yeah. Stay tuned because, um, honestly, I, I feel like this podcast is, uh, one of the, one of the reasons why, um, I'm able to talk like we're obviously it would have these conversations and, you know, talk this through really like, talk this out to, um. Not only get us to the next steps, but hopefully if you guys resonate with anything that we're saying and the things that we discuss, um, like, you know, help you get to the next step step as well, um, or how to get your hand to open that doorknob. Yeah. So stay tuned because I will be, uh, using this podcast platform to share. Obviously, we're still going to share our experiences, but I definitely want to provide updates on how it's going specifically for this type of thing. Um, some of my goals are to obviously like, uh, be healthy, lose weight. Um, and also, you know, get deep into get or be deeper into like my practices to be able to be in a place to help people, you know, because obviously, like, you have to you have to do the work yourself in order for you to be in a place to hold space for other people that are are going through a hard time. Yeah. So yeah, thank you for sharing that with us too. Thank you. I think that's it. That's it. Yeah. Bye. Once again, guys, thank you for listening. If you gain something or feel inclined to share this episode, please do so. Go to our Instagram Deep Dive In podcast that's dive in the dive in and connect with us there. Comment share. Post. 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