EP 50 | Realizing We We're Consuming More Than We We're Creating

In this milestone episode of Deep Divin, we get real about something we both noticed creeping in lately — we were consuming way more than we were creating. 😬
From bingeing self-help to scrolling reels pretending it's "research," we realized… we were avoiding ourselves. Avoiding our own magic. Our own medicine.

Brenda shares how the noise got so loud that she had to pause all outside inputs just to hear herself again. And honestly? That’s when Source started speaking the loudest.

We dive into:
 ✨ Why numbing with content feels safe (but keeps you stuck)
 ✨ The link between creative resistance + unprocessed emotions
 ✨ How to re-enter creation mode without pressure or perfectionism
 ✨ Why your voice matters — and why the world is waiting for it

This one’s for you if you’ve been feeling overwhelmed, stuck, or disconnected from your power to make something real. We’ve been there too. Let’s create our way out of it. 🌀

Check out Brenda's guidebook to help get you out of those patterns here.

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EP 50 | Realizing We We're Consuming More Than We We're Creating

 Hey guys! Welcome to the Deep Dive In podcast with Nancy and Brenda. And we are back, baby. Hey, everyone. Hey, everyone. Welcome back. As I drink my coffee at 2 p.m. and 2:23 p.m. for sure, but I like I like slow starts, honestly, and I really like so. Me too. I, I saw it take a while back and I said, um, it was a girl and she was talking about like what she aimed for in life. And she the phrase that she used was to be a well-rested woman. And I was like, yeah, that's my goal in life to be a well-rested woman. Yeah. To me, that means slow mornings and means. And I, you know, I'm already slow. So, like, if I'm slow but slow slowly, it's like, bro. Yeah. Um. Slow mornings. Just like. Eat whenever I get to eat or eat my coffee whenever I get to drinking coffee. Um, your sister would die with this. She's gonna die. Like what? What? Why don't you go to the gym? Yeah. Okay, bro. I get out of bed because I have to go to the gym. Good. Um. But that my. My goal in this lifetime is to be a well-rested woman that has lived her life. Karol G, song por el mundo. It's like my inspiration right now. Every time I listen to it, like I think of myself and other countries and stuff. Yeah, but because, like, her lyrics are so spot on for me. Like, my life is not well lived. If you haven't lived, if you haven't enjoyed any experiences. Right. I want to go to a pizza and skinny dip and potions or whatever. Right? And would you ever do a nudist beach? Yeah you would. I don't even know why I say I like to try it. You know me? Yeah. Yeah. You're running around naked. You in a good way, guys. Yeah. So, wait, would you, um. Yeah, I would try it. Okay. I think I feel like it's a no judge song. Yeah. So I think, you know, other people are comfortable with it. I think the, the, the only thing is, like, you know, I don't want to see old people. It kind of like, freaks me out a little bit or whatever. No, I see it differently. I think that's why. Yeah. I mean, like, I get it. The natural aging. Beautiful. Like, I know that's what you're going to say. We're all born from, like, I get it, I get it. I understand we are all you know from this earth, and it's natural for us to age and it doesn't matter. And our older is okay and blah, blah, blah. I understand where you're coming from. I understand where you're coming from. But to like, see like a like an old man shivered, you know, ass and dig like a. Boo boo. I've got my whole life without being exposed to this. I am not one. That wanted to see old. Dickie walking around. Well, then that's the only thing. But if it's like, you know, there's like an age limit. Yeah, yeah, I'm sure there's gotta be some. Yeah. So anyways. Yeah, that's. I don't know how we got there, but yeah, we got there. That. Yeah. Like that's, that's my goal in life. You know, a well lived, well rested woman as um. And I think that's the main goal. Like I grew up growing up, I never saw the women in my family. Rusty. So it was very hard for me to learn how to rest and not feel guilty 100%. Yeah. Me too. With my mom. My mom was a hustler. Like my mom used to get up at 3:00 in the morning, go to work. Um, she would have to ride the bus back home. And mind you, it was far away. Like we lived far away. Um, it's like working in. I would have to say, like working in North Las Vegas. Yeah. And living like. And hand in hand. Like all the way. Yeah, like. Like we're canvassing. Working north, like Centennial. Okay. And then living in, like, the ends of Henderson. Okay. All day. Yeah, it was far. So she would have to, like, come back in the bus. Right? Sometimes she'll get a ride or whatever, but she would just work and work. Work? Usually she worked Monday through Saturdays. Yeah. Um, and and. Yeah. Like she didn't rest. And when she had, she came home. Well, she had three of us to take care of at the time and had to make food and, like, clean. And there was a lot. And yeah, me too, I didn't, I didn't. There, there was no example of a slow morning. Yeah. That wasn't even a concert. Now, even now, sometimes I'm like, shit, I have to go. I have to go. Yeah, because I am also used to that. Yeah. Waking up and going to work. Right. And waking up. Going to work. That's been my whole life. And it's it's honestly as crazy as it may sound and honestly is very hard to get used to. Yeah. To be out of your mind and just be like. Like or enjoying it. Yeah, there is some days that I do fully enjoy it. There's some other days that I'm like, no, what the fuck are you doing? Get up, do something, go clean. Whatever you have to do. And it's really hard sometimes to enjoy it. And it's usually right now I feel like it's I'm going through this transition where it's becoming. I'm. I'm getting used to the slower life as opposed to always being in my mind about like, oh, like, get up, go do something like, you know, hustle or whatever. What did you say? Or something that helped you, like get better or accept like a slower life? I think just a reprogramming. The reprogramming of oh, you need a you know, you you get up and you have a job and you have to go do your thing. Like, I think it's a reprogramming of that, that it's like I've told myself or I meditate to, you know, in the morning. And that's helped me like be at a slower pace as well. Um, but it's mostly the reprogramming for sure. What do you do to reprogram? I well, I always whenever I'm aware of something that I'm doing based off of an old belief or old programming like that, for example. Yeah. Like if I'm catching myself thinking I need to, like, get up and go do something because I need to go do something because I've been programmed to get up and go work. Yeah. I catch myself in that moment. And at that time, like in that moment, I'm reprogramming myself by saying like, no, you are worthy of a slow morning. You are worthy of your own pace. There is nothing you have to do in this very moment. You could take your time and enjoy your breakfast. Take your time and enjoy your whatever it is. And write to that. And that's it. And you and as you, as you go. I feel like the more you become more aware of those thoughts, and in that very moment you tell yourself, like what your new belief is and what you want to reprogram yourself with. And little by little, those thoughts start going away. Mhm. Thanks for sharing that. Yeah, that's actually very valuable because, um, a lot of people get stuck in that first, the first pattern, the first thought that they think, uh, and from there sometimes it just burns down. Yeah. And they have, like, spiraling thoughts and stuff. Yeah. And I didn't know it. This is something that I just learned, like how to do, um, um, based off of other, like, uh, people that I follow. Right? Like, Aaron Lyons is one I feel like she's been the biggest help with learning how to reprogram and and that's it. I try not to. I used to be very like, oh, I need to read all these books, and I need to, uh, listen to all these podcasts. And I feel like I've minimized that down to just listening to certain people. Like, certain. Yeah. Like right now, literally just listening to Aaron Lyons podcast and listen on on Sundays, I listened to Michael Beckwith, like in the Agape Center, like his, uh, ministry and that's it. For the most part, yeah. That's all I listened to. Oh. That's good. Yeah. And the reason why I do that is because I felt like everybody has a way of saying things, and everybody has a way of, like, sharing things. So I feel like the more information that you consume, which is great, like, don't get me wrong, it's amazing to read books and, and and consume all those things, right. Um, but at some point, uh, I feel like you have to halt and start learning from within. Yeah. And I feel like that that's where. That's why I've minimized all of the intake. Because I felt like, okay, I feel like I already know the things that I need to know. Now I just need to, like, connect the dots in my habits and behaviors and my thoughts and, you know, whatever is going on that I need to start just doing the work and reprogramming myself instead of continuing to consume like all of these. Like all of these. Follow the information. Yeah, I agree, I know for me it's been like, uh, unknowingly I'm in the same boat. I didn't know you were doing the same thing. Um, like reduce the amount of things that I read or listen to, even on social media, like I was, I was messaging somebody the other day and I was like, my algorithm doesn't know me because I don't spend enough time scrolling through it to know, like, for it to know me. Right. And so, um, so it's funny because I got to a point where I felt like I was overloading my brain with all of this stuff that I was learning, and I, and I felt like I was broken because the stuff that I read is like, spiritual and like, rewiring myself. Right? And I've never read like, fantasy or like just for fun books. They've always been like self-development and. Uh, and so I got to a point where I felt like I would, uh, I was overloaded with this information, and I just kept finding things about myself where I'm like, oh, my God, everything's wrong with me. Like, I, you know, and and I'm like, I'm just like, shit. Like, how am I supposed to like, yeah, cool or whatever. I remember you used to say that a lot. Yeah, it's like in the beginning, like. Yeah, when we would talk about these things. Um, I remember you used to say, like, another thing to add to my list of. Yeah, something to work on. Yeah. Yeah. See that? I'm just so frustrated, too. Yeah. I would just start crying because I felt like, uh. I just felt like, oh, my God. Like, there's so many things. Right. And on top of that, I'm like, well, there's already like, things that I'm working on, like, yeah, what the hell am I? And so I finally just like, stopped reading a bunch of things and listening to things and, um, I went inward. And then not too long ago, I read a post by, um, I forgot his name, but he wrote a post where he said, uh, he's like a lot of people go on walks and they put on a podcast, or they put on music, or they put on an audiobook. Um, during that walk, he's like, not. Ah. And I'm summarizing what he said. It's not verbatim, but he pretty much said, like, people put these things on while they go on their walks or when they go in nature and stuff without realizing that they're really just silencing themselves because they're not allowing themselves to go inward. And I remember that was me for a long time, like I was listening to an audiobook or a podcast or like whatever, I would be listening to something, right? And I'm like, oh, what else can I learn during this walk about myself? And not not realizing that I can learn so much by just walking in silence? Right. And, um, that is how I do that now. Like it's silence. Yeah. Because you become aware of the thoughts that are coming in. Yeah, exactly. You get to that point where the thoughts come in or the ideas come in. Yeah. And for me, walks used to be that I remember like I used to tell you like, oh, my God, I got this idea and this idea and then for a long period of time, like they stopped. But during that time, it's because I was listening to audiobooks and stuff on my walks. And so now I'm just like, oh, I need to get back to my walks and nature. But just like, without. Yes. Duh. And, um. And so. And that's. And that's where I'm at right now is like, oh I'm done. Like with the whole. I'm not done. You know, like I understand there's shadow parts, there's patterns that I'll always probably have to reprogram here and there, but I'm done focusing and nitpicking at myself and being like, oh my God, I have to be like this perfect or whatever, because nobody's ever perfect, right? No. So, I mean, you can't live in that judgment either. Yeah. So like, it's a judgment against myself. And so now I'm at the point where, like, I'm just gonna live and, like, do whatever I feel like doing and I'm just gonna, like, go after that because that's following my intuition. And that's exactly what makes you feel good. And through that, I know that I will learn whatever it is I need to learn in that moment. Right. It's great. It's crazy. This whole, like, walk in entrepreneurship, slash spirituality, slash be human. Yeah. Slash wanting to get away from the matrix. Yeah. Right. It's it is. It's, um, I gotta say, it's been a trip, like, to be going through all of it at the same time. I don't know what I'm saying, but, um. Okay. Wait. You do? No one. Yeah. Why? Well, because I, I feel like I feel like it at times. I could understand why there's people that that or that there is people that don't go all the way, like, or there's people that actually start their entrepreneurship, um, path. And sometimes it gets too scary. And then you go back to having a job and whatever. And I battle with that because it's like, I know that sometimes it's needed because of the life that or or the system that we live in. Yeah. You know, you want to make sure that your stuff is paid for or whatever, but it's crazy because it's not only like you said, it's not only, you know, a path into entrepreneurship that we started is also a spiritual path that we started, and more importantly, the healing path that we started all at the same time. Kinda. Mhm. And it's and for me it's, it, it's just like I'm happy to be here in this moment and being in this life, I, I know this is the life I want. Yeah. And I think the emotions come because. The world that we live in is so fucked up. Yeah. And. And it's true. Like how they have us. How they have us, like, just trapped in this system of chasing money. To be able to pay for all of our shit. Mhm. When, like, it's not even real. Yeah. It's really not like it's made up fucking money. And I know that this sounds like far fetched to a lot of people. And I understand that these concepts may not be, you know open mind like these are a lot of them. Yeah. Relatable. And but I mean honestly, like if you get to a point where you're able to identify the system that we live in and, and know and be able to see the world for what it is like, you're going to see how fucked up it is in a way of like of of the greed that exists in this and the manipulation and the slavery that still exists because of the way that they have us, like still entrapped in this monetary system, that. Was created for, for that to keep us enslaved and to keep us in line. Because if you're obviously working and you have those and you're just focusing on making money because you need to pay this and you need to pay that, you're never going to ask any questions about what's being done in the world. And that's exactly what they want us to do. And I know, I mean, I know these this concept is, like you said, like it's not very it's sometimes very like it's not very, very receptive. Once you understand and you dig deep into all of these things that I'm mentioning, I feel like that's where the emotions come because because it's so fucked up how how they have us living this way. Yeah, yeah. And broke down yesterday. Yeah, yeah. That's true. I broke that yesterday. And just like feeling this like I don't know stage in this being in the, in this unknown stage right of like um because I don't know if too many people know, but like when you decide to be an entrepreneur, right. Like you did the quote unquote, just so I. I tried to make the voice tone with it, uh, like it's. You gotta like it's you go into that because you bet on yourself, right? And so yesterday I broke down because I was like, I'm betting on myself. Am I failing myself? Like, am I like, not doing all that I can do to freakin make whatever it is that I'm putting out into the world of success? Right. And it's like it becomes this, like mental battle with yourself, you know, because you're like, Buck, am I doing enough? Right? And why isn't it happening? Why? Why is happening already? Like, why isn't it coming into the material world already? I know that it's lined up for me in the spirit realm, but when are you going to fucking give me my money? Spirit. And so it's like, um. And so it's like it gets tiring sometimes because you're out here, like, thinking you're doing all you can do, but there's always a little bit more you can give and that you can do. And so yesterday like. I know people. I don't know if people have heard this, but whoever's listening to this but they say, take your sadness, take your grief, take your rage, that anger, and transform it into something good for your life. And I had a hard time understanding that for a long time until yesterday. And I was like, babe, guess what I did with my sadness and my anger? And I told you I created a whole website page on my website, right? And to me that is like easy, like so easy. I did it in like 30 minutes and it's for my corporate wellness stuff. And I was like, shit, I don't have a page for the people that are interested in corporate wellness to like go to. And, and so I, I created that page really quick out of that. And now and then right after that, I felt like, all right, Brenda, like, you know, how much more you can give. You know, how much more you have to go? Um, keep going. Right. It's like I pumped myself up again. Yeah. I was, like, deflating myself. Let's do a little switch to blue. And, uh. And then I was just like, no, you got this. Like, you know the life you want. You know the life you deserve. And, you know, like, what is yours. And so I like I felt better after that, a little bit better. Right. Um, but today I'm feeling a lot better because I'm just like, no. Yeah. Like, I know what I want, right? Yeah. And what do you know? An opportunity presented to me. It's, um, like people peop people give up in those moments of. Like how I felt yesterday. And I'm like, fuck! Like, no, I can't do this anymore. Like when you essentially feel defeated. Yeah. Like you feel like it's not happening. Yeah. You know. Um. But, I mean, that also comes with, like, our wanting. You know, we we wanted that in there. Right? And and I know it takes time. That's one of the things that I mentioned to you is like or that you hear as well is like you we you go through these things because you essentially have to I feel that you have to unravel and you have to really, like, work on reprogramming yourself in order for all of the good to come. Yeah. Because if you still have this, um, there's like, energy or, or negative frequency towards money or you still have beliefs of money, of scarcity, of that you're not enough that you are not worthy. Like if you have these feelings lingering, those are all going to cause, you know, a blockage to your receiving the things that you want to receive. So I know that you I know that I go through these these moments of emotions and and. These things come up for me because I need to work through them. I need to reprogram myself and basically understand where they call what is still there. It is still my belief about money that I'm blocking. Like it's I'm still blocking it from from coming. Because at the end of the day, money is literally an exchange of energy. Yeah. And the more I feel and this is one of the things that, like, has come to me in the last couple of days is in, in the conversations that we have of like, damn. Like what? Like what else can we do? Like, what other things do we want to get into? Right in, in generating money or or in those, in those conversations? I mean, there's still some type of like scarcity feeling. Yeah. Right. Um, and I think it's transmuting that into, well, what else do I feel like creating? Yeah. What else do I feel like I want to create? Because at the end of the day, the energy that we that we put out there is based off of the creation and the expansion of ourselves. Yeah. And with doing so, you attract whatever it is, whatever life that you want to have, and that includes any money that you want to make. So I feel like it's just transmuting that. And I the biggest thing is, is creating more than consuming. Like, I found myself maybe the last couple of weeks getting more and more addicted to scrolling on like TikTok or Instagram than I was creating TikToks. Yeah. And post. Yeah. And I realized that, like, holy shit, I look like this is not this is not it. I can't keep, like, consuming information that it doesn't matter. Yeah. Instead of sharing what I feel is going to maybe help people in these difficult times, quote unquote, that we're in. Right. Um, because that consuming the social media, to add on to what we were saying before is also consuming that information. Yeah. Information. And so your brain is like literally overloaded with shit. And then we have people that are like, oh, I have ADHD or like I can't focus or I can't do this. And it's like, no, it's because you're consuming so much. And that's what I was doing. Yeah. Yeah. So not only do I know, like, I already have, like, a sense of, like, not being able to focus unless, I don't know, unless there's something specific that I'm doing or working on. Um, and on top of that, like, consuming randomness information and, like, videos. Don't get me wrong. The dog videos. Like that's on me. But like, hey, I mean, it just doesn't make sense. You know, so I know that. I know that that's where the gap lies is the the consumption is greater than the creation. So if you flip that around and you create more than you consume, then you're creating and and providing more to the world where there is it only works. That's that's literally manifest, like manifestation. Yeah. Yeah. Like that's the that's literally the definition of manifesting the life that you want is by. Creating and helping more than you're consuming and you're taking. Yes. Because in doing that, guys and doing that creating Dennis is talking about it gets you into a state of feeling that makes you feel really good, which is called the law of vibration. And before you can actually manifest the things that you want, you have to be in a good vibration in order for the things to come. And so, like a lot of people don't know that about the law of manifestation, like they think if they just think it like it's going to come to them. But you are literally a radio signal. And so in the thus you creating all of these things that make you feel really good. That is why sometimes you'll find that people like having overnight success, or people like I get these lucky opportunities, and it's because they weren't doing things that made them feel really good. And then in doing so, it attracted the rest for them. Yeah. And so like I'm in that same spot too. Like for me, the gap is focusing more on doing the things that I really enjoy. And as nerdy as this may sound, I really enjoy techie stuff. Yeah, I like I really enjoy that on us. Uh, on top of what it is that I actually do. And, um, and that's okay. That's the thing. Like, yeah, there's so many things. There's like, I feel like me, for example, I, I honestly like, I mean, before last year, um, or I mean, I shouldn't say that, but I what I was going to say is. You really don't know the worlds or other worlds that are available to you if you're literally stuck in one? Yeah, right. So in my career, like in my life, like having a job was the only world that I saw possible in generating money. And in the mortgage world. In a mortgage worlds. Like, that's the only like. Oh, like shit. And not only that, but, I mean, you always get people like, oh, that's a good job. Like, yeah, that's you make a mortgage like, you make a lot of money, you know. And I'm like, yeah, you do. You can. Yeah. But but that's the world that I knew. That's it. I mean, obviously I knew about having your own business and stuff, but I never was, but I never knew like, oh, well, what business do I want to start? Right. So I knew the concept of having your own business and being your own boss and stuff like that, like that. I knew that concept. And having your own money, right? Because of course, I wrote Rich dad, Poor Dad when I was like 20. So I knew that concept. But the world that I lived in was so ingrained in me that I didn't know any other way. That's one. So the world that I lived in was 100% engraved in me, and my belief that that was the only way that I could make a living for myself. Right. And I had to, in some way or another, find happiness in that. Yeah. And the only happiness that the only happiness, happiness I found was the money that I was being that was made like I used it to go out and eat and drink and whatever. Right? Not purposely though. Like I didn't even think of using the money I was making to free myself from that world because I didn't see any other worlds but that one. Yeah. And that's it. That's the whole world that I saw. Fast forward to today. There is a endless possibility of worlds that you could create. I now know that you know the world that we live in. You could either create content and get money off of that. Um, you could generate money in so many different ways, whether it be reselling, whether it be like really in any like you could create a digital product and you could sell that as well. Um, there's just endless opportunities that doesn't involve you having to have a 9 to 5 job. Yes. And you could do multiple things at the same time. You could create content on TikTok. Yeah. And establish a following there where you could go like you could make money there, make YouTube videos and then also resell at the same time. Like there's multiple avenues that you can that you can follow to basically generate the money you need. But I mean, the the biggest part of it is that you have to like, enjoy it, right? Enjoying what you're doing. And like, you could create money that way and money will come to you. You're enjoying it. You're flowing with it. Money will just come to you. But what? The reason why I'm saying this is just because, like. I didn't. It's crazy to me how though. This world that I'm living in right now was impossible for me to complete. It was impossible for me to live in it two years ago. Really? The life you're living now? Yeah, I didn't I never saw how it could happen. Wow. Or I didn't even think it was. It was right. Oh, okay. Because I was. Because of how I grew up. Like my world. Like, there's. Like I said, there is no possible way. There is no other thing than having a job and like. Yeah, making money that way. Yeah. And it it's it's crazy like it's crazy to think. But the reason why I'm saying this is just that I feel like I want people to hear, like, if, if people are in their own worlds, you know, right now and they're not liking the world that they're in right now. Like, I feel I just wanted to share that because, you know, it's just a different perspective of understanding that you could you could be in a different worlds. You could be in a different life instantly. Yeah. And there is, there shouldn't be anything stopping you. And then you say like, well, Nancy, how am I going to pay my rent? Like, how am I going to do that? Like, I get it, I understand, believe me, I understand. But you have to keep going. Yeah, that's the part you have to keep going and you have to create more than you're consuming. And and that. And that's it. Like that's really what will get you to where you want to be. But I mean, it's most honestly it's mostly just to understand like don't, don't. Like sometimes you just have to think outside the box. Yeah. Like the box that you grew up in, the the box that you were put in. Um, if you were. Yeah. Like, whatever, you could get out of it. Like, just picture yourself with the ladder climbing up and getting out of the box. Jumping. Yeah. Like jumping out of the box and then creating your own life. Like you. Like you could create whatever life you want. Yeah. And I know it's crazy. I know it sounds. Somewhat ridiculous. May be, um. But think about it like. Just think about it. Really think about it. What I'm saying, think about what I'm saying and really think about, like who you are, what you have been, what you believe. And if you believe that the only thing available to you is having a job or career. And don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with that. If that makes you happy, whatever you're doing makes you happy, then that you. That's amazing. But if you're not and you never thought about like other avenues of or other things that make you happy, that you wish you wanted to do or you wanted to do, think about it. Yeah, at some point you gotta you gotta say yes to the life you that you literally dream of. Like, I'm sure that you dream of a life where you could just travel or you could just be home with your kids, or you could just, like, do whatever you want, right? Like, I'm sure people would dream of that. And if you're listening to this right now. And you have those types of daydreams. Then at what point are you going to be like, I deserve to live and experience those daydreams, because it's when you actually say yes to yourself that you will actually move forward and jump outside the box and take that leap of faith, or that dive of faith and, um, go all in on yourself. Because I know for me, every time I get into those little slumps, I'm like, no, I deserve this life that I want. I deserve, uh, the the life to like, travel with with you. Right everywhere we want. My kids deserve to see the world. Like I think of all of those things. And that that's where I'm like, okay, yeah, you have a little bit more in you, Brenda. And it's only like that, guys, that you will actually keep moving forward in your desires. And there's just so much out there to, to experience in the world. And like, I know all we want to do is experience that. Yeah. Yeah. So. Um. Just know that you are worthy of the daydreams that you have. You are. We all are. Yeah. Like we are worthy. And we are capable of creating the life that we want to live. Don't let the quote unquote rat race make you constrained to the life you have lived. Like there's so much more depth to you. There's so much more life for you to live and experience and share with the world. Because I'm pretty sure, like, I know, for me, like I, I used to feel like, who the fuck am I to say anything? Or what? Like, who the fuck am I to share what my thoughts or my thinking or whatever? And now I'm just like, what do you mean? Who the fuck you motherfucker? You're like, you are a powerful being. And if there is anything you can bring to the world, if there's anything that you can share with the world and providing different perspectives, or have people maybe see things differently. That's enough. Yeah. Like, honestly, that's really what my biggest, like my biggest thing with doing this and anything else that we do is that. And I think I've shared that before is like just sharing different perspectives on how life can be lived and how how powerful one is that can create whatever life that you want to like. That's. Honestly. Like that's if I could if I could talk about that every day, like I would. And I do actually. But that's the biggest thing I like to share that I know that's the biggest thing that I'm here to share, because I know, I know how draining life can seem in the system that they created for us. And again, like once you once you know that, you're like, nah, fuck you, you're gonna play a game with me, I'm gonna play a game with you, and I'm going to fall into your fucking trap. Yeah. And then you start rewiring yourself to understand that you're just by creating whatever you want to create and share with the world, that it all comes back to you. You get rewarded for it. So amazing. Here we are. Here we are. You know, I just feel like it's like, right there it is right there. Right it is right there. I mean, one thing I tell you all the time is like, just have to keep going. We have to keep going. And you and Brenda tell me the same thing. Yeah. Tell me the the other thing the other night. And she's like, uh, I'm like, I know, like it's gonna happen, blah, blah blah. And she's like, whoa, whoa, whoa, she's. Exactly. How many we're best friends with. You're right, you're right. You know, like I forget that. Like it's. Yeah. Yeah, it's already happening. I mean, if you step into your truth. With. With integrity and love and just wanting to do the right thing in life and do the right, do right by others, it's only a matter of time. Yeah, that's why I'm saying it's only a matter of time. And the biggest thing is getting over those hurdles. Yeah. Getting over the fuck? It's not happening. Getting over the. How am I going to pay this? How am I going to be that like, fuck, this shit's coming up. How am I going to pay that? Like, I know that shit gets real. That shit is real. I get it, those feelings are real. People are dependent on you, on you making money, bringing in money like you. Obviously we have two girls to take care of. Yeah, it's completely understandable, but. I know that what we're doing is going to create a better life with them that we could share. Instead of us having to fuckin work our lives and not share the time with them. Yeah, I'd rather go through this pain and come out the other side being able to spend all of our time with them. Mhm. So. And I'll do it all over. Yeah. Until we get it right. Yeah. You know until we in that frequency of just creating and generating and creating and generating and helping people understand this and helping people understand that they have the power to create their life, like, that's that's it. Yeah. Thank you for that. That was so great. Bye. Once again, guys, thank you for listening. If you gain something or feel inclined to share this episode, please do so. Go to our Instagram Deep Dive In podcast that's dive in the eye of AI and connect with us there. Comment. Share. Post. We appreciate the support so much and we will catch you on the next one.